Sometimes it’s easy to know someone’s reaction to something you would do. And this is what i love about you, sometimes you become so predictable that i intend to make the steps i make. I guess this is rewarding because i get to figure out something about you no matter how much you try to hide your thoughts or emotions. This gives me warmth and strength to keep me going through my day. It gives me smile and hope, it gives me purpose. And nothing can change this fact, no matter how far we would end up to be, and no matter how life would end up to be.
So thank you for putting a smile to my face today and thank you for caring even for just a little.
Whoever knows me very well, knows that I love all kind of gadgets that makes me think of good memories and people, specially snowballs. It is like in that movie I once saw at Christmas time when someone gives a snowball as a gift to the one he loves and it was so magical, pure, simple and very beautiful gesture.
Your gift was the perfect gift. All gifts I got were very nice and thoughtful but yours were special: snowball of a fairy woman on a horse, that I love to think of as my guardian angel, like I consider you to be. You surprised me in an amazing way. The fact that you know me very well and can read me without difficulty made me feel vulnerable yet so happy and so in love. It does not matter anymore if I’m in love with the thought of you or in love with you, I just can’t put myself out of it anymore, no matter how hard I try. Yet I promised myself that I said it once loud and clear to you and I won’t say it again unless you are here where I stand. And there is nothing in the world more perfect than a nice cozy rainy night spent with people I love, as you called it spent at home. Sometimes I feel this weirdest and strangest feeling that in the silence lies hundreds of unspoken words between us and this makes me want you more and more. But all I have is these couple of hours we spend from time to time, enjoying your company, feeling in my own home, safe and happy.
Yesterday was a little bit more special, the electricity went out and we were sitting in the dark with candle light, some quiet to share with laughter talking and wine. I never felt afraid or having the phobia of darkness or closed spaces whenever I am with you. Although we were not alone, but I felt intimacy and closeness between us. And when the light went back again, we both felt sad, you by expressing it and me secretly wishing that it never got back. But since everything has an end, it was time to go back home. How I wish someday that your home will be mine too, I can see myself living in it, waiting for each other, talking, cooking, reading, sleeping,,, doing anything and everything.
Until that day comes, if it will ever will come, I want to say that since my birthday I was feeling blessed with a lot of things and I was thinking a lot of my blessings and gifts in life. My family, friends, even at work and specially my niece have giving me a lot of strength and hope and great meaning for my life. Each person in my life has played a special role and grow a special meaning in my heart. I feel love all around me and I thank God for this blessing and this life. We all play a part in this life, and I feel that this year will be the beginning of my plan to focus on for the rest of my life.
When you wake up in the morning from a beautiful dream where you were crossing a river in the middle of magnificent mountains, or a dream where you were crossing the narrow streets of Italian cities with your friends, or when you are running to your home and find out the amazing scenery ahead of valleys, it’s an inspiration.
Sometimes, people are struggling in so many different ways, one word can change what they are feeling or dealing with, one word can uplift them and make them moving forward no matter what. So when you read about people who encourage the world to be themselves no matter what, to love themselves, and accept themselves and others, and you see how the world is responding in positive way, it’s inspiration.
We read a lot of articles and we hear a lot about all kind of human struggles we face everyday. But to see how a friend got to fight with all what he has for building his career and life, to see how a beautiful young lady lost everything she got but yet still surviving with the best she has, to see a couple of parents who lost their child for unfair circumstances and yet still living, to see a wife who lost her true love battling against severe disease and yet still smiling for her children,,,you find inspiration by all it means.
Hoping that one day my inspiration will be fulfilled with you being the biggest part of my life, sharing it with me and I will be sharing yours by your side.