Last night was a perfect night out I had since years. It was fun, crazy, chaotic and full of laughter and dancing. It was liberating and carefree. It was everything I needed it to be.
For once, I did not think about you, all I thought of was that moment I had, that smile, that drink, that dance, that fun. And it was an amazing feeling. I did not even think about what if this night out was with you.
All I saw was people that want to have fun with amazing music and ambiance, and I was part of it. And the company was great too. I am blessed to know such amazing people.
And to end it perfectly, I had a dream that was fun too, of same ambiance, with different people, and one particular person that I admire so much. There were some weird moments in the dream, but it was still perfect, and you were not even a part of it.
So when I woke up today, I knew that I will never be the same without you, I will be better. And you were lucky to have me a part of ur life. It will be your loss if you did not appreciate. And I will be just fine.
It’s nice to know that you have someone you can talk to from time to time, even if you don’t share everything, even if you can’t see him. But it’s still good to know that somehow he will be part of ur life for ever, the same in his. And it shows in little few things that are happening.
In a less than a week, I will have my birthday coming, and it will be the first time in 5 or 6 years in a row that you won’t be a part of it, but it will be the first time in those late yrs that I won’t be expecting something and getting disappointed for it. And it’s a less depressing feeling.
I’m almost at the end of a small project, and you want to know a secret? you were my inspiration, at least for a small part, and I hope it will get at least some of the attention I want to have.
Till that day, I wish you are having as much fun as I am and more. Despite everything, you still deserve peace, success and love in ur life because deep down, like really deep down, you carry a huge heart.