In these couple of days, a strange feeling in the morning was striking me when I drove mu dad to work. It was the closest I’ve ever been to you since almost what now, 2 – 3 months,,, I know it is a silly and stupid and childish thing, but I can’t help it to feel alive.
In my daily quotes, I have been told to feel gratitude around me, to feel love and to feel inner peace that God is always with me. And it is true in every way. I feel gratitude for so many reasons and in so many ways: I am alive, in good health and shape, in a decent lifestyle, around my family and friends, people around me love me (well the majority at least), my work is good, I have everything I dreamed of having,,,so hard to write hundred of things, but so many things to think of being grateful for.
A nice memory hit me today when I got texted from my childhood best friend. We always did things together, we spent so many happy days and years having each other backs, hanging around, going to the cinema, going to my dates for support, spending nights and nights at the balcony of our homes watching guys playing around or hanging together, so much great memories that would never end and wouldn’t trade them for the world. I am grateful for those too. Sometimes life happens and we had to be apart from people you care about, but they are always a part of your soul and journey, and when you meet them again, it would be like you were never apart that long. This is a true friendship.
When I look back at this and what I had with you, whatever it is called, I feel the difference. For that I am grateful too, to tell the difference and to see in between lines to help me get through this, again, and never make the same mistake for the uncountable times.
I have been told that “To change your life fast, use gratitude to shift your energy. When you put all of your energy into gratitude, you will see miracles take place in your life,,,Your power is the Feeling that you put into the words of gratitude. Whatever feelings you have within you are attracting your tomorrow. Worry attracts more worry. Anxiety attracts more anxiety. Unhappiness attracts more unhappiness. Dissatisfaction attracts more dissatisfaction. And Joy attracts more joy. Happiness attracts more happiness. Peace attracts more peace. Gratitude attracts more gratitude. Kindness attracts more kindness. Love attracts more love. Your job is an inside one. To change your world, all you have to do is change the way you feel inside.” and gratitude, love in the small things I do every day, at my work, my home, when am around friends, and my strong belief in God are the things that won’t let me down or won’t let me feel less than deserved in this journey of soul we are living for a certain period of time.
And even if I never forget you, even if I will always think of you and love you, and even if I know that what I need and want from all this won’t happen, I can’t but wish you all the love and inner peace and greater achievements for your life.