Yesterday was another disappointment and another wake up call that things changed. we will never be the same again and we will never get back to where we were, just like the movie “the way we were”. It all ends up and maybe, just maybe, after several years, if the fate will let us meet again, we will smile at each other and keep going in our different paths of life we chose for ourselves. “Knowing what is right is like deep water in the heart, a wise person draws from the well within”. I think I know what is best for me, I don’t know if after being a living part in this universe for 30 years I can say that I know myself well, but I can definitely say that I know how am gonna live for what I love to do: I work, I go out, I read, I write, I work out, I enjoy my daily basis life. “No pessimist ever discovered the secrets of the stars, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new heaven to the human spirit – Helen Keller”.
Today I woke up from a dream that I can’t remember exactly but something rang to my ears when I opened my eyes. It was a song from a French old boys band that I was repeating it over and over again. So I spent my mornings surfing the youtube for old videos of that era. It was so cute and funny and nostalgic. It got me back to the old golden days when we had only a radio to tune in and hear those songs and one tv channel that can put on those videos. I remember I can spent the entire day on that same radio or tv channel while studying or writing my diaries or reading my favorite books and magazines. If I had the power of going back in time, I would definitely go back to those days, when the only worry was a bad grade in some exam at school. I lost track of time while watching again the videos and I started downloading some and I guess I found a new hobby to do to spend time while at home without actually not benefit from it.
It was a good feeling and it gave my day a little hope and joy to my heart, and this was before I discovered the Secret book words for today and yesterday “The Universe is guiding you and communicating with you in every second of your life. It is responding to your thoughts and it is giving you invaluable feedback through your feelings. Your feelings are cosmic communication ! The good feelings mean Good For You. The bad feelings are to get your attention so that you will change what you are focusing on,,,you are never alone,,,the Universe is right with you at every step, guiding you. But you have to listen! Look for the gifts in everything, especially when you are facing what appears to be a negative situation,,,Adjusting to a new path and a new direction will require new qualities and strengths, and these qualities are always exactly what we need to acquire in order to accomplish the great things ahead in our life”
Those are the truth that we need to believe in for a better life, for a better us. And I guess I am ready to let go, never forgotten but just letting go of you, of the memories, of the childhood fantasies and the many stories that were told inside of my mind and heart so many times. I will let go but I will not forget, for they are a big part of me, a big part of my path that I always walk alone. No regrets, the best is yet to come !